sleepin, it just takes time.

 if you followed any of my motherhood journey, my biggest challenge was sleep.

he started off not sleeping + kept that patterned until 3 weeks ago.

maybe it was me.

maybe i didn't know enough, read enough, tried enough.

i do know i have bought almost every swaddle possible, 

tried every setting on our sound machine,

cried, prayed, but nothing seemed to really work permanently.

i have stellar mama friends who just seems to nail their routines, schedules + sleep patterns.

so much advice was thrown my way +  i felt inadequate, 

not really figuring out my sleepless babe.

turns out, all eli needed was time.

turns out, schedules, baby wise, swaddle or no swaddle, 

wasn't going to make a difference.

eli needed time.

funny it took me almost an entire year to be okay with that.

sure,
i could've probably done better,

but due to our lifestyle, my work schedule + my sanity,

i wish someone just told me gently, it might just take time.

a few years ago, okay a lot of years ago, i was in high school jazz choir. 

hashtag nerd, but it was something i loved.

we were given quite complicated music, handed over to us on cd's with one track of just our part, the other just the girls, then everyone combined.

i distinctly remember leaving one practice almost in tears.

i couldn't get my part, there were too many note changes + it seemed way too complicated to me.

but then the next day, the music started + suddenly it clicked. 

i had my part.

all those hours of playing that cd payed off...

it literally just took time.

 i should've realized that this too, would just take time.

i probably would've saved money, frustration + stress, just realizing that i could be okay with time.

so, here i am, again, sharing that i really knew nothing + that i am constantly learning.

i guess thats just the usual around here.

so maybe your baby sleeps awesome, maybe he doesn't, 

but at least we can allllll agree that there is nothing more beautiful, 

than a sleeping babe.

am i right? i think i'm right on that one.

this adorable swaddle doesn't go far from eli.

get one for yourself here.

sleepin, it just takes time.