Happy Hancock's: my unanswered prayers

today, i went visiting teaching for the first time in MONTHS.

because we move around so much, jay + i often fall through the cracks of our ward

+ i've missed the responsibility of teaching.

i decided to focus our little lesson on the relationship of our savior + visiting teaching.

but as i looked around for a topic, i realized that i was finding quote,

after quote that was j u s t what i needed.

funny how it works like that huh?

i sat down + made small talk with the first sister + my companion finally arrived all cute + pregnant.

we are telling each other little snips of our lives + my sweet companion mentions her due date.

july 11th.

then she turns to me + says, well do you have the lesson ready?

july 11th?!

seriously out of all due dates, why july 11th...

that was my first miscarriage due date + i couldn't help think,

wow, that's what i would be looking like right about now...

i looked down at my phone quickly, trying to compose myself + find my lesson

+ i couldn't help but laugh a little when i opened up my first quote.

"I recognize that, on occasion, some of our most fervent prayers may seem to go unanswered.

We wonder, 'Why?' I know that feeling! I know the fears and tears of such moments. But I also know that our prayers are never ignored. Our faith is never unappreciated. I know that an all-wise Heavenly Father's perspective is much broader than is ours. While we know of our mortal problems and pain, He knows of our immortal progress and potential. If we pray to know His will and submit ourselves to it with patience and courage, heavenly healing can take place in His own way and time."

-Russell M. Nelson, "Jesus Christ-the Master Healer."

i took two biiiig breaths, surprised at myself that i hadn't started my cry-talking.

i realized that if no one in that room took anything from that lesson,

i had + for some reason, i had stumbled across that quote just hours earlier,

not realizing that it was just what i was going to need in that moment after hearing, july 11th.

my prayers, a lot of my prayers, these last few months, have seemed to go unanswered.

i, myself, have asked WHY?!

i'm a good person, why not me?!

but as easy as it is to be upset, to be discouraged,

i'm proud of myself for finding happiness,

finding strength, finding courage.

because:

"While we know of our mortal problems and pain, He know of our immortal progress and potential. If we pray to know His will and submit ourselves to it with patience and courage, heavenly healing can take place in His own way and time."

+ that's good enough for me,

that's all i need to know for now.

+ i realized, after hearing july 11th, that my prayers for strength + courage haven't gone unanswered.

my sister-in-law julia made me a quick print for me for my ladies + I thought I would share because this quote says just what i say to myself everyday.

Feel free to download + check out her shop here:

https://www.etsy.com/shop/HolleyMaeAnnFae