growing pains

being creative is hard.

i overthink my work, wondering what i should be doing to make myself better,

to make my work stronger.

i do what i do because i'm passionate about it + because i'm passionate, 

i'm the hardest on myself.

it was so easy in the beginning.

it was new, so my shortcomings, i over looked because i was just learning, just starting.

but almost two years into my business, i stay up at night wondering how + what am I doing to make  myself better.

there is something so fulfilling, yet so draining about creative lines of work.

my growing pains suck,

but being stagnate on myself is my biggest fear.  

“Everywhere in nature we are taught the lessons of patience and waiting. We want things a long time before we get them, and the fact that we want them a long time makes them all the more precious when they come.” Joseph F. Smith

this quote resonates again + again for me.

e v e r y w h e r e in nature we are taught the lessons of patience + waiting.

+ i've learned over + over again that my hard work + patience always pays off.

because heck, 

i can rock growing pains if i know i will get through them

+ i know that i'll get through them.

so here is to a new week.

wish me luck,

as i am getting ALL FOUR of my wisdom teeth taken out tuesday.

let's get a fist bump for even going to the dentist. 

i mean, there is n e v e r good news when you go to that place of hell.

luckily i'll be so drugged up, i'll think i'm the coolest thing since sliced bread

so maybe i really will get through this funk sooner than later.

(insert winky face emoji) 

fingers crossed.

growing pains