self-portrait

i thought a lot about what i should do for this months self-portrait.

with weddings, falling through roofs (i should write about that), packing/unpacking, starting school,

i've felt so tired just thinking about pictures.

being thursday, i thought it appropriate to do a "throw back thursday" 

on the first thursday of my last semester of college.

these pictures were actually my high school senior pictures.

since starting school this past monday, 

i've reflected a lot on the past + my senior year.

i was accepted to byu-idaho, graduating with some of my closest friends, + 

SO ready to move on to bigger + better things.

i was so ready to move onto the next step in life.

now this post isn't about how much i miss high school.

nope.

but this is about moving onto the next step.

right now, i'm constantly saying that i can't wait until i graduate. 

right now i'm so over school. but am i really?

when i walk across that stage i know i will feel that familiar pang of change. 

that knowledge that life is moving on.

i found a quote that i really loved on pintrest today.

stop waiting for

      friday

for summer

for someone to fall in love with you,

for life.

happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it + make the most of the moments you're in now.

i don't have regrets about moving through my past into my future.

i just have moments where i wished i realized i was in the good 'ld times

before i left those good old times.

i started noticing that i would say things like,

'i can't wait till...

or i wish i was here or there.'

+ it brings you a sort of unhappiness. 

all these times of me 'wishing' for a future times,

was causing me to pass up on the present times.

i was passing + wishing away my good old times.

i think we all might be a little happier if we stopped wishing for a different time,

enjoying what time we have now.

as i move forward from college,

i realize different times, probably better times, are ahead.

a career, 

children (whoa what?!), 

+ who knows what else my life hold from here to now.

but by knowing that i need to stop wishing for another time, i'm forcing myself to either

like how things are, or change them.

because what i have + make of now, is really what my future will bring.

so bring it on future, i'll be seein ya.

until then, hello present, i'm lovin ya.

ps. remember when these were in style? or was i the only one that thought these glasses where the bee's knees?

self-portrait